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very thoughtful and touching! you know what? when you're feeling down, just look at your profile picture: a big smile on a yellow background

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Thank you, perfect light! I think that's a good reminder.

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Beautiful photos. I can feel the sadness and the joy that comes with it, if you know what i mean. 💛

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Thank you, The Braver Mom.

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Thank you for this sharing. I was reminded of a gift a friend made for me when I began to write as travel. It held goldfinches which she shared represent joy, luck, and inspiration in Native American culture. Thank you for being a source of inspiration.

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Thank you, Jenny. I am glad to hear that. I hope all is well with you.

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Your sister will always be with you. That is a good thing. 💛

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Thank you, Alice. She is indeed. I miss her very much.

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Thank you for sharing your grief with us! Sending you love.

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Thank you, Manuela.

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There's so much beauty in your grief, dear Stella. Thank you for sharing it. xoxo

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Thank you, Ann.

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Stella, thank you for sharing this time with us. That butterfly ...the bird. Both visits to remind you that there's just thin veil between us and those we love who have gone on. It doesn't take away the pain and it will morph over the years. It's been 5 years and 2, respectively since I lost my mom and brother and it still affects me greatly, but it does become part of you and living their memory on my own is a burden and a blessing. Take care, Stella.

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Thank you, Juliette. it feels so heavy right now as if it is never going to get any easier. Your words give me some hope.

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I know. It just hurts a lot very often :( and can be terribly isolating if you are with people who haven't experienced loss. If I could go back, I would have found a community of people to work with on my grief a lot sooner. I promise it does get better and if you are able, make art your salve. Sending warm thoughts your way.

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Thank you, Juliette. I will.

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How beautiful that Marica is still giving you comfort from beyond. Oh how I miss her so much! Please know that I am here for you too. Sending you so many hugs.

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Thank you, Peachy. I appreciate it. We miss her so much too.

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This was heartbreaking and wonderful at the same time! Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings with us. Sending you a hug!

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Thank you, Susanne.

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A yellow butterfly - that’s so lovely. I had a similar experience seeing a swan’s feather floating in the breeze soon after a loved one died. I kept the feather.

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Oh, how wonderful, Andrew! Thank you for sharing your story. I appreciate it.

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Love the yellow butterfly and bird. When Mum died, it was a blue budgerigar outside and then blue wrens - all unexpected but bittersweet, leaving us thankful but with such mixed emotions. Take care dear Stella. Sending hugs and best wishes.

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That's so beautiful, Beth. Thank you for sharing your story. It makes me feel less alone experiencing grief.

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The photos are so right too. Lovely, sad, restful. Beautiful images in their own right.

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Thank you again, Beth. If I hadn't said it enough. Thank you for your support.

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Beautiful photos capturing this time. I love the butterfly and bird moments.... I know I've looked for signs over the last nine months.... It seems especially poignant that you had those signs and were alert and open to them.

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Thank you, Amy. It’s such a gift to have our love one’s presence after they’ve passed. And with such clarity from my sister, we know with certainty that she was with us.

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You write so beautifully, with such honesty and tenderness. I’m deeply moved by your words and the grief you’re carrying. From now on, yellow butterflies will make me think of you and your sister.

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Thank you, Anne. I appreciate your kind words. Spring is almost here- I hope there will be more butterfly sightings.

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I am so very sorry for your loss, and that I hope your days grow ever brighter.

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Thank you, Joy.

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